‘Dada, morning became.’


-Brian Mendonça

To be in the presence of a child is to be privileged. Often one fritters away the opportunity to be enfolded in the amazement with which they see the world. Small children are curious about anything and everything. Adults with their jaded lives have long lost the ability to be struck into wonderment about the many miracles which happen every minute of every passing day.

Somewhat trapped in the AC coach of a train, in the wee hours of a new day, a voice floated up from below my berth. It was my son Dwayne giving me his weather bulletin around 6 a.m., ‘Dada, morning became.’ It was not an announcement I was looking forward too since I desperately needed to catch some sleep on the overnight train to Mumbai.

Undeterred by my silence, my son (6) kept repeating the phrase. For him it was an awesome experience to watch the embers of darkness fall away and discern the first fingers of the daylight. I clambered down my berth and watched the dawn with him. As the sun rose higher, we could see it like a fiery orange ball. ‘Baba, kick the ball,’ Queenie said. ‘If baba does that, it will be night,’ I said, playing along. Those precious moments, in the embrace of cosmic forces, were so very dear to us. In that instant, the immensity of nature, forged us together as a family.

At home, it is a different story. I ask him how his day was at school, and he ignores the question. He is more concerned to make a beeline for the TV or to play by himself with the remote-controlled car we bought him on Children’s Day. He is developing a mind of his own and we have to qualify to be part of his priorities.

We try to wean him away from senseless watching cartoons and expose him to children’s films. At first he makes a scene but later when he sees us both watching with him, he settles down to enjoy the movie. Jalpari: The Desert Mermaid (2012) is a gripping film in Hindi of Shreya, a tom boy, who stumbles on practice of female foeticide in the village. I specially liked the way the daayan (female portent of evil) is reinstated into society. Windstorm (2014) is a German movie about the relationship of Mika, a young girl, with Windstorm a misunderstood horse.

Dwayne has still to come to terms with grandpa’s passing on. The other day when we were saying the rosary he nudged us saying he wanted to speak to grandpa and ask how he was. He misses the times he had with him. A few days back he declared that he wanted to die. When we overcame our disbelief and asked him why, he said he wanted to go to where grandpa was.

We know these times like November rain, will not last forever. For now it is enough to keep pace with his sense of wonder.
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Published in Gomantak Times Weekender, St. Inez, Goa on Sunday, 26 November 2017. Pix by Brian Mendonca

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